I'm a college graduate and I have this degree now. And while some of my peers and friends are on their way to a second degree, or even PhDs, I'm still mulling things over and trying other things out. And sometimes, I feel like I've missed the boat. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret many things in life, it's a general rule of mine to not regret things, but I feel like somehow I'm not there yet. Does that make sense? I still want time. Maybe it sounds like my head is in the clouds or like I don't want to grow up but I promise you it's not. Im not where I thought I would be when I 18 years old and starting college and I'm not sure I'm disappointed in my self because along the way I've figured out a lot of interesting nuances about myself and acquired new skills I never thought I would have.

I find myself on the verge of figuring it out, but I need a space to put it all together because sometimes you need something more than a friend. I'll just tell you, write it all down, on this little corner of the internet. And perhaps this is what I've been missing, a place or someone to tell it to. A place to get out of my head and find some peace. Because as much as I think these thoughts and try to work them out in my head, it really does feel better to get it out in writing and be able to reread them. And I know that no one may be listening but that's not what it's about.